And now I close myself in

And now I close myself in.

That’s it
The door is closing like irrevocable rock.

The last sight sound experience has been tasted
And the darkness closes in.

Like the Pied Piper
When the crippled child
Was left outside

Like the Bridegroom
When the Foolish virgins
For the door was locked
When they returned
With oil for unlit lamps.

I listen

I am inside

And I have chosen this
My great expansive solitude
In a little place

Come what lament may come
From far beyond the door
Or yet from deep within

For now,
For the sake of my forgotten mystery

I close myself in.

Sarah de Nordwall 28th October 2003